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>>34140
>autogynephilia
I don't imagine myself as a girl tho, I specifically imagine myself as like a gentler male character, because being a "bitch boy" was basically how I viewed myself during my upbringing, trooning out as a concept genuinely grosses me out more than the idea of getting old and ugly, its just too perverse a idea for.

This stuff also isn't really 100% sexual, it did affect my sexuality since I mentioned I got into femdom and gender role reversal kind of stuff but I genuinely just for some reason have this weird catharsis feeling whenever I see characters like ralsei or specifically non sexualized "soft" male anthro characters where I feel like Im seeing myself/how I mentally view myself/my internal monologue, I don't feel the same way when I see "femboy" stuff because I feel too grossed out by the fetish aspect to get that cathartic feeling.

I blame my autism getting me obsessed with deltarune and weirdcore while I was actively trying to kill myself since I think it made me picture myself as ralsei/something similar whenever I would have a breakdown and cry.