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>>11868
sorry to hear that, i myself found in such position a while ago, i was lost, i was... desperate, i had no clue where to go or what to do, frankly sometimes i still think about that at times but back then it was way worse, i really wish the best for you fella and that you find someone or something you can truly love or care for! life is a... is certainly a thing, life can be a completely small thing something you don't even notice, for an outsider for example, yet life is something huge for yourself, the existence the consciousness whatever you would call that, you know what i mean... that is if this world is even real but you know what i mean i'm sure. sometimes i think to myself why even bother? why even do what i do? like is this what i do right now even worth it? who am i doing this exactly for? for myself? i don't care? i don't really wish to work a fucking 9/5 yet look at me being a good goy doing everything to just get a CHANCE to get into a 9/5 so much bullshit they make you go through just to still tell you to go work at a mcdonald's when 50 years ago you could basically walk in and get any job and even if they would want your education bullshit paper thing well that's not the point either way, basically anyone could get a job and when you got a job you could sustain not just yourself, you could have a huge loving family and sustain yourself with a whole ass house and so on as now it's barely possible to get by just by yourself let alone with a "family" not that such thing would love most of us anyway considering what unrealistic expectations everyone has got from (((them))) we are simply fucked either way, where even was i? why am i talking about this again? well... talking is a bit of a stretch, more like typing after all right? oh i know, i was writing about why i'm doing whatever i am doing i made this whole shit once again about myself how selfish of me i'm such a terrible person, truly terrible, i don't want to be a terrible piece of shit person but that's what i am, that's how i am there's nothing i can do about it well i could except not really i mean i can but not really idk i'm fucking tired i came here to write about me going to sleep again but saw this delightful thing of yours, i have no clue if YOU are seeing it or if you bothered to read the whole thing but i just want you to know that you are not alone, we're all struggling kind of, some just get good at pretending they don't, some go full on delusional schizo mode while others are just forced to bear the pain, and honestly, you coming out here and telling this, even on an anonymous image board thing, that's a good step, that's a good thing, you're not afraid or well maybe you are, damn it why am i so terrible at this, forgive me for being so fucking horrible i wish i wouldn't be but that's what i am, basically, good luck in life man do NOT give up under any circumstances remember you were born a non pajeet (i hope) you won, you were given not just the chance to live but to live as a human being take the chance even if niggers are everywhere trying to make our life's worse it's still worth to fight for a good life. there you go now i wrote a mile of text once again well that's just me after all, now i will send this and i'll write about me going to bed once more totally not being delusional trying to make myself believe that maya is real and is with me loving me and caring for me (which she is btw) love you zaryan! remember! ==FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT!==