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 I am him. I did write that message on /qa/. It is easier to hate than to forgive. I deserve it. I changed. Trust is a fragile thing that is built over time, that is why the only way you can be sure that my testimony is true is by observing that I won't offend again in the future.
 It is fun to hate, I know because I hated a lot. My life before this summer, back when I hadn't accepted the living God into my heart yet, was filled with hate and perversion. When I had not yet begun my walk with the Lord, I was in the grasp of something evil. It gnawed on my conscience like an everlasting worm for years until it conquered me, always dragging me to the same sin over and over. I was hateful. I hated because hate fueled my rebellion. I myself didn't believe I would ever change. And yet, by His grace, He found me. Christ saved me from this pit of sin nevertheless, and taught me the way, towards Life, through the narrow gate, and pointed me towards repentance. He restored me. I have not only changed, I am born anew.
 The Lord told us, "if your right hand causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away." boldly. I knew what caused me to sin, it was my habits, addictions, and all the filth I gathered through years of browsing the internet. I quit them all, removed them from my life, destroyed them and did my part. None of you realized my silent departure when I deleted my pixiv account months ago. I deleted many other things along with that and cut them off and threw them away as the Lord told me to. What troubles me is the past I cannot change. I led others astray. For that I can only ask the Lord to have mercy on me. I deleted what I was able to delete, but these things uploaded to other sites I have no control over. Even I do not have the originals anymore as I have deleted them. What is done in the past I cannot change, I changed what I could, forgive me. What I have control over is the future, and you will see it.
 I do not post on any other board or platform other than soyzellig. If you see someone saying I do, it is a lie. I don't know what is going on beyond soyzellig. What I heard is some kind of huwabag hate culture formed outside of zarty, or it has become hip to hate huwabag, just because you can use that name, unlike other anonymous drawers that you can't tie to a name. So I heard people are using this name as a scapegoat to blame everything on it as a meme, from what I understand. If you are genuine and form your opinions based on the actions of the person behind the name, know that I have turned from my ways and take my promise that I won't do it again and observe the future, for God will curse me if I break this promise. But if you don't care about the person behind the name, and hate huwabag because it's a fun buzzword, then you are only playing games. I do not use this name anymore as I have deleted my pixiv. What I say is don't fall for gossip and hearsay, for deceivers are many, and hate is enticing.
 Zaryans, and others from the boards, forgive me because I wronged you all. I have turned from my ways, pray for others in the name of Jesus so they may turn from their ways as well. God's love is not far for those who seek it.